He recently told fans that there are ‘very few options’ to help his baby daughter Azaylia after her leukaemia returned.
And Ashley Cain admitted that he’s found the last couple of weeks ‘mentally challenging’ as he copes with his baby girl’s devastating diagnosis.
In an emotional video shared to his Instagram on Friday, the Ex On The Beach star, 30, told how he’s pushed himself to get out of his ‘comfort zone’ and back on top form as he insisted: ‘My daughter needs me at 150%’.
So tough: Ashley Cain admitted that he’s found the last couple of weeks ‘mentally challenging’ as he copes with his baby girl’s devastating diagnosis
Speaking into the camera during a walk, Ashley told how the video is ‘self reflection’ after finding himself struggling mentally in the wake of his daughter’s illness.
He said: ‘A lot of people have said that I’m motivational but the truth is, I haven’t been motivational or inspirational for myself recently. I think coming home put me in a comfort zone in some kind of way and it took me out of my routine at the hospital.
‘Also with the added trauma on my mind of my daughter’s leukemia coming back, it’s been difficult. The last couple of weeks have been very mentally challenging and I’ve done what I never do, I let myself slip.
Heartbreaking: He recently told fans that there are ‘very few options’ to help his baby daughter Azaylia after her leukaemia returned (pictured in January)
‘It’s all because I haven’t kept my standards, I haven’t been tenacious with the way I go through life. I’ve sat back and I’ve allowed myself to get in my comfort zone and that is the worst thing you can do. Nothing was ever achieved in a comfort zone.’
The reality star then gave an inspirational message of how he’s turned things around and is determined to be strong and transfer his positive energy to his little girl.
He went on: ‘My daughter needs me at 150%. That means, I need to do whatever I can do in my power to make myself that level so that I can transfer that energy onto her. If I eat right, if I sleep right, if I train right, and if I keep pushing towards my goals in life, that makes me the top of my game.’
Pushing through: In an emotional video shared to his Instagram on Friday, the Ex On The Beach star, 30, told how he’s pushed himself to get out of his ‘comfort zone’ and back on top form as he insisted: ‘My daughter needs me at 150%’
He continued: ‘That energy translates into my daughter. And I tell you what, starting from now, I’m never ever ever gonna slip into that rut again because I don’t like it, it’s not be and I’m never going to get nowhere being like that.
‘Last night I got up, half 12 at night, and I went on a run, I ran 8k in the freezing cold, in the pouring rain. But you know what? I had to make a stand against my mental health last night before it got too late.
‘I had to stand up, I had to fight and I had to get out and get that s**t done. Because I tell you what, I woke up this morning feeling refreshed, revitalised and ready to hit the day hard.’
Hard time: ‘It’s been difficult. The last couple of weeks have been very mentally challenging and I’ve done what I never do, I let myself slip’
Concluding his talk, Ashley added: ‘So I guess what I want to say to you guys is that you have a choice. You can sit down, you can roll over and you can let the situation control you. Or you can get up, you can get out and you can fight it! Because if you fight now, you win later.’
It comes after he gave an update on Azaylia on Wednesday, saying he and partner Safiyya Vorajee’s next course of action was to reduce her cyclosporine medication in the hope it will prompt Azaylia’s stem cells to fight her cancer.
Posting a photo of his six-month-old looking up at the camera, Ashley wrote: ‘Having my daughter back at home has been amazing. She is happy, she is growing and she is learning new things every day!
Pushing forward: EOTB’s Ashley admitted on Wednesday that there are ‘very few options’ to help daughter Azaylia after her leukaemia returned but detailed their next plan of action
‘This being said, there is still a huge cloud over us because consultants discovered that Azaylia’s leukemia has returned post transplant, which leaves us with very little options going forward.
‘However, our next step is to reduce her cyclosporine medication which is there to regulate her new stem cells, to wake them up and give them a boost in the hope they will fight off the remaining leukemia cells,? which the chemotherapy can’t.
‘We are hoping that we encounter a strong case of GVL (Graft vs Leukemia) and minimal amounts of GVHD (Graft vs Host Disease) in this process (sic).’
Plan: Ashley said he and his partner Safiyya Vorajee’s next course of action was to reduce her cyclosporine medication in the hope it will prompt Azaylia’s stem cells to fight her cancer
Honest: Posting a photo of his six-month-old looking up at the camera, Ashley added: ‘We are hoping that we encounter a strong case of GVL (Graft vs Leukemia)’
Going on to gush about his daughter’s positivity in the face of her illness, he went on: ‘I am SO proud of how much strength and courage she has shown throughout this journey!
‘& the fact she can always find a smile no matter what she’s going through, is nothing less than unbelievable!
‘We go again Likkle Lion. Please keep Azaylia in your prayers. LETS GO CHAMP ❤️’
Moving: Going on to gush about his daughter’s positivity in the face of her illness, he went on: ‘I am SO proud of how much strength and courage she has shown throughout this journey!’
Last week, Ashley said he was feeling ‘slightly rattled and super nervous’ after revealing his baby daughter Azaylia’s leukaemia has returned.
The reality star shared an emotional update with fans on Instagram, saying he needs ‘some time to sit and reflect’.
Earlier in the day, the doting dad had taken his little girl to hospital for an appointment and revealed there is a ‘new plan of action’ amid her cancer battle.
Strong: Last week, Ashley said he was feeling ‘slightly rattled and super nervous’ after revealing his baby daughter Azaylia’s leukaemia has returned
Giving a late night update, Ashley said: ‘I’ve let the girls go to bed and I’m staying up, can’t lie it’s been the first time properly since it started I’ve felt super super nervous.
‘Feel like it’s hitting me a bit and I haven’t been rattled on his whole journey and I feel slightly rattled at the moment.
‘Think I need some time to sit and reflect, pull myself together and reset for tomorrow, crack back on. Heads gone a bit today, can’t lie.’
Ashley had earlier shared sweet clips of him playing with his daughter after their trip to the hospital for an appointment.
Doting dad: The reality star shared an emotional update with fans on Instagram last week, saying he needs to ‘some time to sit and reflect’
In one video the reality star looked every inch the doting dad as his adorable little girl lay sleeping on his chest with her hand resting on his tattooed arm.
It had been a busy day for the family, with the star earlier reassuring fans he’d update them on Azaylia’s situation ‘when we get our heads around it,’ before telling his tiny daughter: ‘You’ve got this.’
Ashley documented their trip to hospital for an appointment, with Azaylia looking sweet in her car seat, while he told her: ‘Hello princess, off to hospital, aren’t we?
‘Big day today. Let’s go champ. You look amazing by the way. You look absolutely beautiful.’
Adorable: Ashley shared a sweet clip of his little girl sleeping on his chest and resting her hand on his arm
After their appointment, the father-of-one asked his little girl: ‘Shall we go back home now baby? Shall we have a play? Do you wanna have a kiss? Have a cuddle? Yeh.’
Ashley then revealed: ‘So, we’ve got a new plan of action now for Azaylia. It’s gonna take a bit of time to get our heads around it…
‘But, I’ll update you guys as soon as we’ve had a chill-out, got our heads around it and we’re ready to go for it.’
Then, in a heartwarming moment, the reality star turned to his daughter and said: ‘Let’s go champ. Let’s go champ. Likkle lion. Likkle lion. You’ve got this.’
Ashley was left in tears last week when he marked the moment his daughter Azaylia left hospital to go home for the first time in five months.
The reality star described it as a ‘miracle blindsided by heartbreak’ after doctors delivered the news her leukaemia had returned- just 10 minutes before the family were due to leave the children’s ward.
Azaylia is battling a rare and aggressive form of leukaemia and had recently undergone a stem cell transplant.
Taking to Instagram, Ashley shared the moment of Azaylia ‘ringing the bell’ so he and his partner Vorajee could finally take her home, with Azaylia continuing her treatment as an outpatient.
You’ve got this! Earlier in the day they had visited hospital and he told fans he’d update them on the situation ‘when we get our heads around it,’ before telling his daughter: ‘You’ve got this’
Doting: Ashley documented their journey to hospital, with Azaylia looking adorable in her car seat, while he told her: ‘Hello princess, off to hospital, aren’t we?
He penned: ‘Today was supposed to be a day of unquestionable happiness. However, it turned out like most days on this journey; A miracle blindsided by heartbreak!
‘We got told a few days ago that’s Azaylia would be ringing the bell today and coming home with us, as a family to resume treatment 2 days per week as an outpatient.
‘However, 10 minutes before the moment we have been praying for over the last 5 months…
‘We got urgently informed that Azaylia’s leukaemia had returned. We crumbled and cancelled the celebration as we felt broken and numb to the core before seeing her beautiful face telling us, the show must go on and us then realising how far our little girl has come and how much she deserves this moment.
Emotional: Ashley was left in tears last week when he marked the moment his daughter Azaylia left hospital to go home for the first time in five months
‘She has battled against the odds, she has overcome every obstacle in her path and she has done it all with remarkable spirit and the biggest smile on her face!
‘For now we are enjoying precious moments at home until we return to hospital on Friday! Thank you for your support and please keep our beautiful daughter in your prayers!’
The moving video showed the corridor lined with nurses and doctors applauding the family as they prepared to go home.
Through tears Ashley said: ‘I want to say thank you for all the care you’ve given us. For looking after her but also just the care for us has been amazing.
Sad: The star said it was a ‘miracle blindsided by heartbreak’ after doctors delivered the news her leukaemia had returned- just before the family were due to leave the children’s ward
Devastating: ‘We got urgently informed that Azaylia’s leukaemia had returned. We crumbled and cancelled the celebration as we felt broken and numb to the core’, Ashley wrote
‘We got some news today that Azaylia’s leukaemia has come back but that just means that we stay positive and we get back to ring that second bell and get out of here.’
The couple had faced an agonising two week wait to find out whether the stem cell transplant managed to clear out the leukaemia from her bone marrow.
Ashley said he was devastated to learn Azaylia was at a higher risk of complications going into the transplant after her cancer returned, following two rounds of chemotherapy.
When Azaylia was diagnosed with leukaemia she had a soaring white cell count of 200, and also had tumours on her lungs, kidneys, and stomach.
Poignant: Taking to Instagram, Ashley shared the moment of Azaylia ‘ringing the bell’ so he and his partner Safiyya could finally take her home
Keeping positive: Ashley’s partner Safiyya Vorajee also commented on Ashley’s post saying that their ‘special little girl’ will ‘beat this’
What are the symptoms of leukaemia in children?
Fatigue and pale skin – this is because leukaemia can cause anaemia which makes a child feel weak, tired and light-headed.
Infections and fever – children with leukaemia lack normal white blood cells which would normally help fight infection.
Rash – children may have small, dark spots that look like common rashes if the leukemia cells spread to the skin
Easy bruising or bleeding – this includes frequent nosebleeds, bleeding gums and bleeding a lot from small cuts.
Bone or joint pain – this is caused by a build up of leukaemia cells near the surface of the bone or inside the joint.
Swelling of the abdomen – leukaemia cells may collect in the liver and spleen causing them to enlarge.
Loss of appetite and weight loss – if the spleen and liver swell, they can press against the stomach causing loss of appetite.
Swollen lymph nodes – some leukaemias spread to the lymph nodes causing them to swell.
Source: American Cancer Society
Ashley revealed that a normal person’s white cell count is five, while adults who are suffering from the blood cancer tend to have a white cell count of 40, so it was alarming that Azalyia’s was so high.
The star explained that being told the news left him a ‘broken man’, and he claimed it was an ‘absolute miracle’ that she has been able to fight the cancer.
Through publicising Azaylia’s battle, Ashley has helped the NHS get 80,000 people to sign up to become stem cell donors in just 48 hours after he appealed for help.
Saying that he was ‘forever grateful’ to the members of the public who had ordered test kits to be added to the stem cell register, Ashley claimed the charities usually get 30-40,000 people registering in a single year.
Ashley, who made his appeal to find a donor on social media, said he thought it was ‘beautiful’ how people could come together for a good cause in spite of negativity that is often prevalent online.
Treatment: In January, Ashley revealed his daughter had been responding well to her stem cell treatment