Prince Harry has claimed the royal family tried to smear Meghan before her interview with Oprah Winfrey, said The Firm is still ‘trying to control the narrative’ and that he has ‘no regrets’ since ‘speaking his truth’.
In a series of interviews on Apple TV’s The Me You Can’t See, the Duke of Sussex also accused the Royal Family of ‘total silence’ and ‘total neglect’ when Meghan was suicidal, claiming his father Prince Charles made him ‘suffer’ as a child.
He said: ‘Before the Oprah interview had aired, because of their headlines and that combined effort of The Firm and the media to smear her, I was woken up in the middle of the night to her [Meghan] crying in her pillow – because she doesn’t want to wake me up because I’m already carrying too much.
‘That’s heartbreaking. I held her. We talked. She cried and she cried and she cried.’
The Duke said he and his wife felt abandoned by his relatives and this was one of their ‘biggest reasons’ for leaving for California last year, insisting he had ‘no regrets’ about his decision.
As Harry insisted he still wanted ‘reconciliation’ with his family despite his repeated attacks and that ‘therapy has equipped me to be able to take on anything’, it also emerged:
- Meghan told him she wanted to kill herself and had planned how to do it – but was only prevented from killing herself by concern over him ‘losing another woman in my life’;
- Duke says he drank alcohol and took drugs to cope with his mother’s death, admitting he would drink a week’s worth of booze on a Friday or Saturday night to ‘feel less like he was feeling’;
- He again blasted his father’s parenting, saying Charles informed him and William that they would suffer the same problems he did but he was determined to ‘break the cycle’;
- Prince Harry reveals one of Archie’s first words was ‘Grandma’, along with crocodile and hydrate, and it made him ‘really sad’ because his late mother Diana ‘should be here’ to see her grandson grow up;
- Returning to London to attend Prince Philip’s funeral last month was a ‘trigger’ for his anxiety, and a test of his ability to cope, showing Oprah how he meditates as he was ‘worried and afraid’ about returning to the UK;
- The Duke describes how he is still haunted by the sound of hooves after being forced to watch his mother’s coffin pass him on The Mall.
Prince Harry (above, in Apple TV’s The Me You Can’t See), claimed the royal family tried to smear Meghan before her interview with Oprah Winfrey, said The Firm is still ‘trying to control the narrative’ and that he has ‘no regrets’ since ‘speaking his truth’
He added: ‘That feeling of being trapped within the family, there was no option to leave. Eventually when I made that decision for my family, I was still told, ‘You can’t do this’, And it’s like, ‘Well how bad does it have to get until I am allowed to do this?’. She [Meghan] was going to end her life. It shouldn’t have to get to that.’
Harry described how his wife told him she wanted to kill herself, while six months pregnant with Archie, on the way to the Royal Albert Hall in London and she spoke of the ‘practicalities of how she was going to end her life’, claiming it reminded him of his mother’s final weeks in 1997.
He said: ‘Meghan decided to share with me the suicidal thoughts and the practicalities of how she was going to end her life’, adding that she later decided against it because she didn’t want Harry to lose ‘another woman in my life’.
The Duke said ‘history was repeating itself’, because Princess Diana was with Dodi Fayed, who was Egyptian by birth, when she died in 1997, saying there was a real fear that he would lose Meghan.
He told Oprah: ‘History was repeating itself. My mother was chased to her death while she was in a relationship with someone who wasn’t white. And now look what’s happened.
‘It’s incredibly triggering to potentially lose another woman in my life. Like, the list is growing. And it all comes back to the same people, the same business model, the same industry.’
During the series of interviews, Harry also said the trauma of his mother’s death led him to use and drugs to ‘mask’ his emotions and to ‘feel less like I was feeling’.
The Duke of Sussex was just 12 when Diana, Princess of Wales, died in August 1997 in a car crash while being pursued by the press in Paris.
Prince Harry said: ‘Before the Oprah interview had aired, because of their headlines and that combined effort of The Firm and the media to smear her, I was woken up in the middle of the night to her [Meghan] crying in her pillow’ (pictured: Harry and Meghan being interviewed by Oprah in March this year)
The Duke of Sussex also accused the Royal Family of ‘total silence’ and ‘total neglect’ when Meghan was suicidal, claiming his father Prince Charles made him ‘suffer’ as a child (pictured: The Queen, Prince Charles, Camilla, the Duchess of Cornwall, Prince William and the Duchess of Cambridge in March last year)
He said: ‘I was willing to drink, I was willing to take drugs, I was willing to try and do the things that made me feel less like I was feeling.’
The royal said he would drink a week’s worth of alcohol on a Friday or Saturday night ‘not because I was enjoying it but because I was trying to mask something’.
‘It was like I was outside of my body and just walking along doing what was expected of me. (I was) showing one tenth of the emotion that everybody else was showing: This was my mum – you never even met her.’
The series focuses on mental health, with Harry telling Winfrey the trauma of the loss caused him to suffer anxiety and severe panic attacks from ages 28 to 32.
‘I was just all over the place mentally,’ he said.
‘Every time I put a suit on and tie on … having to do the role, and go, “right, game face”, look in the mirror and say, “let’s go”. Before I even left the house I was pouring with sweat. I was in fight or flight mode.’
Oprah Winfrey pictured above in the series. The show’s release comes amid a backlash last week in the US after Harry’s attack on the ‘bonkers’ First Amendment
Prince Charles, Camilla, the Duchess of Cornwall, the Queen, the Duchess of Sussex, Prince Harry, Prince William and the Duchess of Cambridge on the balcony of Buckingham Palace in July 2018
Recalling walking behind Diana’s coffin at her funeral, he said: ‘For me the thing I remember the most was the sound of the horses’ hooves going along the Mall.’
The show’s release comes amid a backlash last week in the US after Harry’s attack on the ‘bonkers’ First Amendment and after his broadside at the Royal Family in which he appeared to suggest both his father and the Queen had failed as parents.
Royal Family expert Katie Nicholl said that Harry’s recent comments have left Britons in ‘quite a bit of shock’ that he ‘went as far as he did’.
She told Entertainment Tonight: ‘I think certainly people over here are a little disappointed and I think frustrated as well, hearing Prince Harry indirectly criticize the royal family, which I think is the interpretation by some over here in the UK.’
Nicholl added: ‘A lot of people here think Prince Harry has overstepped a mark in talking so personally about his father, and his relationship with his father, in what most people have interpreted to be quite a critical way.’
The Sussexes made a series of damaging allegations about the royal family when they were interviewed by Winfrey earlier his year.
The couple accused an unnamed royal, not the Queen or Philip, of raising concerns about how dark their son Archie’s skin tone would be, before he was born.
Meghan also said she asked for help when she was suicidal, but said the monarchy gave her no support.