Jessie J broke down in tears on stage as she performed an intimate gig in Los Angeles on Wednesday, hours after announcing she had suffered a miscarriage.
The heartbroken singer, 33, had been told by doctors after her third scan on Tuesday they could no longer feel a heartbeat.
During her gig at The Hotel Cafe, Jessie said she had ‘never felt more alone’ after losing what would have been her first baby.
Devastated: Jessie J broke down in tears on stage as she performed an intimate gig in Los Angeles on Wednesday, hours after announcing she had suffered a miscarriage
Speaking to the audience, Jessie said through tears: ‘I decided to have a baby by myself and by a miracle it worked for a little while and yesterday was f*****g s**t.’
‘This year has been hands down the hardest year that I’ve ever had to go through.
‘In December last year I lost my hearing, I got diagnosed with Menieres. Then I lost my voice which was f*****g awful. Then I lost my baby. I know I’m going to be ok because there is really nothing else to choose in the way I live.
‘I’ve never felt more alone than I have felt in the past week.’
Grieving: The heartbroken singer, 33, had been told by doctors after her third scan earlier this week they could no longer feel a heartbeat
‘I’m all over the place’: During her gig at The Hotel Cafe, Jessie said she had ‘never felt more alone’ after loosing what would have been her first baby
Devastating: The singer took to Instagram on Wednesday evening to reveal she had been told she had tragically lost her unborn baby after going for her third scan
Back in 2014, Jessie revealed she ‘can’t ever’ have children naturally. She said on stage at the time: ‘I was told four years ago that I can’t ever have children.
‘I don’t tell you guys for sympathy because I’m one of millions of women and men that have gone through this and will go through this.’
Jessie took to the stage within hours of announcing she had miscarried and told fans ‘I’m all over the place’ as she opened the two-hour gig.
Tragic: Speaking to the audience, Jessie said through tears: ‘I decided to have a baby by myself and by a miracle it worked for a little while and yesterday was f*****g s**t’
Hurting: ‘I’ve never felt more alone than I have felt in the past week,’ Jessie said
Struggling: The singer was bundled up in a black coat at the beginning of the performance as she told the audience she felt insecure about how bloated she was
‘Good evening everyone. I’m going to play some music make it even more f******g emotional,’ she said.
‘Please be with me tonight, read the room. Everyone in this room is human and all of us are going through something in life right now.
‘Forgive me I’m all over the place in my life and I’m not going to pretend I’m not so Price Tag might seem a little sadder than usual but I’ll do my f******g best.
‘I’m in the thick of it in this moment and that’s the reason why I’m here because there isn’t anything in life which helps me understand myself more than this.
‘I had no idea how I was going to feel it might be a night of balance. My heart feels like I’m running, but I’m not.’
Honest: ‘Forgive me I’m all over the place in my life and I’m not going to pretend I’m not so Price Tag might seem a little sadder than usual but I’ll do my f******g best’
Hurt: ‘I’m in the thick of it in this moment and that’s the reason why I’m here because there isn’t anything in life which helps me understand myself more than this,’ the songstress added
Putting on a brave face: Jessie used her sense of humour to get her through the set
‘I’m in quite a bit of pain,’ Jessie added, before she told the audience she felt insecure because she was ‘swollen’ as she removed her plush coat.
Earlier in the day, Jessie told followers she had ‘decided to have a baby on her own’, after revealing in October she had split from her boyfriend of seven months Max Pham.
The grieving songstress said she was ‘still in shock’ but decided to perform in Los Angeles later on Wednesday evening ‘because singing will help me’.
Sharing her pain: The singer struggled to sing the songs as she battled through her emotions
Whirlwind of emotions: The grieving songstress said she was ‘still in shock’ but decided to perform in Los Angeles later on Wednesday evening ‘because singing will help me’
Fertility difficulties: Back in 2014, Jessie revealed she ‘can’t ever’ have children naturally. She said on stage at the time: ‘I was told four years ago that I can’t ever have children’
Alongside a photo of her holding a pregnancy test, Jessie wrote: ‘Yesterday morning I was laughing with a friend saying ‘seriously though how am I going to get through my gig in LA tomorrow night without telling the whole audience I am pregnant’.
‘By yesterday afternoon I was dreading the thought of getting through the gig without breaking down…
‘After going for my 3rd scan and being told there was no longer a heartbeat. This morning. I feel like I have no control of my emotions. I may regret posting this. I may not. I actually don’t know.’
Strong: She said: ‘I lost my baby. I know I’m going to be ok because there is really nothing else to choose in the way I live’
Single life: Jessie told followers she had ‘decided to have a baby on my own’, after revealing in October she had split from her boyfriend Max Pham after seven months of dating
She continued: ‘I decided to have a baby on my own. Because it’s all I’ve ever wanted and life is short. To get pregnant was a miracle in itself and an experience I will never forget and I know I will have again.
‘Im still in shock, the sadness is overwhelming. But I know I am strong, and I know I will be ok.
‘I also know millions of women all over the world have felt this pain and way worse. I feel connected to those of you I know and those of you I don’t.
‘It’s the loneliest feeling in the world. So I will see you tonight LA.
‘I may crack less jokes but my heart will be in the room.’
Sweet: Jessie received a hug backstage after her performance
Thumbs up: The singer put on a brave face as she performed to the audience
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