(CNN) — It’s been six months since Stephen “tWitch” Boss, the DJ on “The Ellen DeGeneres Show” and dancer who rose to fame on “So You Think You Can Dance.” Now his mother has spoken openly about the process of coming to terms with the loss.
In an interview with People magazine, Connie Boss Alexander opened up about the loss of her son, who died at the age of 40.
“When I think about him, I try not to think about how he left this earth,” she said. “This is not the complete end. That’s where my peace comes from.”
Boss Alexander has two other children, but he shared a special bond with Boss.
“She had been sick, so she texted me to ask how I was doing,” she said of her latest communication.
“That was the last time we spoke. To the point where Stephen may have been in serious depression. No, not Stephen,” Boss Alexander said. “He was very attuned to analyzing himself and trying to make himself feel better, reading self-help books, so this was a complete shock.”
While focusing on family, the grieving mother opened up about how she’s still trying to come to terms with the loss.
“Right now I guess I’m realizing it,” he said. “When I wake up in the morning, I realize, oh my gosh, he’s not physically here. But then in my head, I hear him say, ‘Hi, Mom. I’m fine.'”
Boss Alexander said he is still holding on to the last words his son said to him.
“She started that last message with, ‘I love you, Mom,'” she said. “And I replied: ‘I love you more’.”
